yesterday's future had turned into a vaguely bleak present, which made the past seem especially shiny.

lived in fear - and

had no institutional or medical support,

they become oblivious of their own needs and

spend the day on the computer or watching tv, rarely speaking to anyone.

wet after rain and off us soaked to the bone,

visited by ufos.

periods of severe depression

- at first funny, then sobering, and finally frightening.

I can keep going.

I will always remember that.

surviving the terrors of a murderous maelstrom of seven deadly sins

which culminated, after his death.

it'll be a good tv show,

won't be easy. Don't trust anyone who tells you otherwise.

don't leave me hanging.

I would have thought the three of us could have made it work.