portrait of a girl resistant to change.

all I ask is a chance to ruin my life in my own way.

everything I do is calculated.

I became intensely and unceasingly obsessed.

it looks as if our troubles are only beginning.

but, I am told, that will soon change.

honestly, this current situation is a huge improvement over that nightmare.

a funny thing happened.

I often feel terrible.

it turns out that we're not alone in this,

I just can't understand how.

sometimes the future is bright, sometimes it's dark - it's all cyclical.